What does this dream mean?

had a dream last night that i was in my high school cl and my youth leader was teaching me and he had my journal/diary and he saw the things i wrote in it and he told me to read it in the front of the cl, so that my testimony may help someone......i did and i was shy....while reading it/ talking to the cl, i... started crying.....some children started laughing at my testimony......i also had a next dream, that my ex-boyfriend and i were dating i think....but anyways we were together. he stopped in a store i cant remember what kind of store.he ran inside...... i was standing outside and i went inside to see what he was doing,but when i reached inside i changed my mind and i quickly ran away so i wont be with hi anymore.....by the time i reached a far distance, he still found me and was going to shoot me....then my grammy i think it was saw us and she dealt with the situation and i was fine...